The Act of Balance

Maybe it was the surf lesson from Monday that inspired me to this blog. Knowing just how difficult it is to learn to balance on a board, I believe it is just as difficult finding that balance in life. I've been seeking it for sometime and I am now coming to the agreement that my life is just meant to be scatty and unplanned with a mix of good and bad shaken and stirred into a life that is totally unwilling to balance itself into normality anytime soon.




Life is an ever occuring act of balance. When something good happens, it is balanced out with the bad. Only when we have experienced both sides of the scales may we appreciate the here and now in our lives.

Having thought I had turned to a new chapter in life, with unusual and daring prospects ahead, I have realise that I cannot appreciate every element of this without actually living it. Having a matter of weeks left in the country has established boundaries on certain elements of life. The last week I've come to discover that the good guys who offer the support and care I have been seeking for so long, come with the package of commitment, which unfortunatly I cannot offer. One taste of truth and reality when you plan to leave the country for a period of time!

The annoying thing is the tempted mind. Tempted by the known comfort, support and love that could be established by staying in one place. Knowing how hard and insecure the next year will be on my own, settling into a relationship does seem very tempting.

Staying positive about the unknown ahead is easy at times but often I am brought back to reality by emotions and the materialistic side of life. Money, chance, love. The big 'What if?'. When this comes to mind, I remind myself of what I would like in my life. If I gave up now, I would always know that I never quite got to where I wanted to be and that I gave up while in pursuit.

No barriers, only hurdles. Or waves in the case of surfing! To be tackled mind, body and heart.